Is there a man born a looser ? I guess there is! It's me ! Yeah , you read it right , am born being one.
Look , i am deprived of everything...deprived in family , deprived in career , deprived in opportunities even deprived in love..Ahhh , seems all aspect in life am deprived. What to do with this life? Who then can tell me, to be happy and enjoy life ? Some know my name, but they just dont know my real story , the drama behind those smiles , the struggles behind those tears.
Since young , i am claiming for my fair share and i can't believed , i realized that until now that is still my shout.I kept on shouting this to my close friends , same stories they heard from me...asking for fair share! Even to God am always interrogating him.why and why and where's my fair share ? Yes , God always responded me but sometimes it's just me who don't listen and insisted what i felt and believed in. It is never easy , it cuts and it shatters and it always disturbs my silence. Sometimes in my silence i asked myself , why me? I am good .I lived with values . I am sweet and easy to be love yet i got not my fair share .Sometimes , it becomes the root of my insecurities and my attention seeking probs . Yes, it troubles me a lot but somehow it reached to the point that i got tired and i realized that this is part of my life. I lived with partiality.But you know what's amazing in here? I came to accept all these partialities with an open heart. I told myself maybe i was really designed for this .it's my fate , have to accept and love this kind of life..fighting makes no sense , going against the tide is stupidity.Through only acceptance that i could feel life ,be contented and have immense peace. And also, one good and beautiful thing here is though they have shown and i have seen those vivid partialities ,these did not make me to love them less..still i am loving these people wholeheartedly 100%.
But friends, if i got occasional tantrums , please bear with me , it's the fair share am shouting only.and nothing more , hence this have rooted so deep it can't be avoided at times it goes out no matter how i covered it , sometimes even unconsciously it is revealed.